2. CFNM party

I'm not gonna write about everything I go to, just the stuff worth writing about.

I was asked to write about the party for the Domme throwing it, to help promote her events. And when I tell you I spent HOURS trying to make it sound good. My first draft was long winded with minute details as are all my ramblings on here. I had to strip it way down. Whatever its up.

But just between you and me.....I'm gonna tell you the shit I couldn't say. 

The party started at 11:30 and I was the first one there. Jesus Christ, I'm usually in bed by midnight. And due to my stupid anxiety I can never eat before these events so I'm always starving at them, which makes me lightheaded....but I digress. 

I show up, she's dressed in latex, looking amazing, the subs are in all black, I think they did a photo shoot. They were all her subs. I thought it would be random subs who wanted to join so I could maybe meet someone. I want a sub so bad 😩. anyway....

They were all so  different. There was the skinny Israeli guy with the nice big dick, I mean it was big flaccid, so....plus he had long ass balls. He had an accent and was mostly quiet. Then there was the older white guy. frankly I found this guy so fucking ANNOYING!!!!!!!! holy shit bro. he like....wasn't fully one way or the other. its like he wanted to serve but also wanted to be coddled. like, the fuck?? you're not a person! you're a THING to be used for my amusement. shut the fuck up. also I told him to rub my feet and he sucked at it. he didn't seem like he was into anything. I think he just wanted to be pegged. and when I asked him if that his thing he's that's mistress's thing. ok then what's your fucking thing bro? like ew stop being so wishy washy. I hate that shit. anyway, no surprise, smallish dick.

then there was a younger looking black guy. holllllyyyy fuuuuuck. I wanted to fucking smack him. he was bratty but not even in a fun way. in a lazy half asleep doesn't give a shit way. I was like are you even submissive? why are you here? none of his energy read submissive. I think he is a brat and needs to be put in his place. and his dick was big. and he got hard when they were putting in in chastity. so I saw it hard. not the biggest I've seen but certainly above average, but you know me I'm a fucking size queen and it has to be monstrous to impress me. still, seeing that I was very much reminded that I haven't been fucked in 2yrs. sigh...

then....there my favorite 🥹. ughhhh you guyyyyyyzzzz.....I have a Domme crush on this sub 😩😩😩😩. he is very much deeeeeeply owned by mistress. sigh.....I want one just like him though. he's just so cute in how excited he is to be used and to serve. it's so fucking precious. the way I fucking love precious men. 

this leads in to the best part of the night and the only part I'll really talk about bc the rest was impact and I'm not into impact. I honestly find it super boring. I'm so much more into nasty stuff, body stuff and psychological stuff. but I swear all I ever see ppl do is impact play. sigh....

anyway....the cute sub....he's a human toilet. I mean he's her everything sub. he has a lot of weird kinks, and he's such a good boy. he's like her personal assistant. they've been together 6 years and he still pays her weekly. I strive for something like thissss...but first I need to learn not to get too close to my subs. 

so she said we could use her "toilet", he's free use tonight. so me and the other Dommes got all super excited like yes! we wanna use him! mind you, this is my first time. and I've fantasized about it a lot, just always been too shy to do it. but ommmggggggg the way he LIT UP and had this big smile and big eyes. omgggggg it was sooooooo cuuuuute...I caaannnn'ttttt😩 

ay que bello! he was like ok! do you wanna sit or stand, and everyone said stand, and I said sit. bc...shy....and he's like OK! and he grabbed the toilet chair and brought it up to the bathroom to accommodate me 🥹🥹🥹 could you just?! he was like an excited puppy. so we all ran upstairs all giddy and I was like....hey guys, I'm not comfortable being watched (I mean, baby steps you know?) plus I had pants on, and it was a whole thing. if I had a dress or skirt it would have been different. so they were like no of course, and closed the door. and it was just me and him. and he's so excited. and I was ok put your blindfold on (bc he hasn't earned seeing my Goddess pussy. he did and then he got him self situated with his head under the seat. which, can I just say, is so fucking hot. Jesus fucking christ.  and I already thought he was adorable and I get horny for adorable. I sat and started peeing. and I just heard his desperate gulps trying to catch it all. soooooooo cuuuuuuuuute! umph 🫦 also.....it was SO hot. to think this guy wanted what was coming out of me so bad. like, that makes me feel so powerful. Like a fucking GOD-dess. it was also kind of intimate really. his face that close to my pussy. I was so turned on I wanted nothing more than for him to start licking, ughhhhhhhhhhhhh fuuuuuuuuuck. I would have ridden his fucking face at that point. just grinding my fucking pussy in his face like --

 --hold on hold on......let me get a hold of myself. I'm getting too worked up. Jesus Christ. give me a min to calm down.......ok I had to get on my phone and watch some reels or whatever to calm down. 

so....I got up from the seat quickly and said how fun that was. I wiped (which I wish he would have done with his tongue) and got my pants back on. then he talked to me for a bit about how he built that chair and how his mistress wants him to build a more complicated one....and all I could think was...I wanna take him home with me. but....I have to be careful bc I cannot disrespect another Domme. so I have to tread lightly. which worries me bc when I like you it's hard for me to hide it. and I'm a flirt...so...oof.

lets see what else.....I learned how to safely trample someone, and smother. that's next on my list. smothering with clothes on....then maybe work my way up to trampling. actually I should start with human furniture. I have to get away from this feeling of being too heavy or caring about their experience. as long as you discuss it ahead of time, they know what they're getting into. 

the rest of the night I just watched. OH!!!!! but ommmgggggggg the most AWKWARD thing happened. this sub showed up when I was close to leaving. omg....this guy used to follow me. interact with EVERY post. loved my shit. loved how brutal I was. he paid my tribute once just to write one message. he got one response. then he sent tribute again just to write another message. delicious. my tribute is not cheap by the way. anyway he was really stressed working on a big project, he works in IT or some shit, so I understood bc I remember the long hours with my ex. anyway....he was off fet for days at a time. occasionally he would pop on quick, like a couple of my things and pop off.  then he was gone for a week or two. then all of a sudden he pops up on my timeline. liking stuff and adding ppl and not interacting with my stuff at all for a few days. which I found odd. my brain looks for patterns, that's how it works with ADHD. when I get the pattern and you deviate from the pattern my brain freaks out. so I messaged him for clarity. it wasn't an angry message but it was direct. asking him if that was it, so I that I could know for sure and get on with my business because my brain doesn't like loose ends (another add thing). but he got really defensive. as if I had been a jealous girlfriend who showed up to his job or something.  and then he told me he wasn't my sub and blocked me. ohhhhhkaaaaayyy.....

so that's who shows up to the party. awkward. I avoided him which I probably should have just acted like I didn't remember him at all. I had a chance to humiliate and degrade him at the party, they stood me up and were literally like , go ahead you do it. I did tell one of the girls about the story so she was encouraging me to do it. but it was 2am and I was so tired, so I'm like I want to but I have nothing left, I gotta split. but let me just tell you, he had the TINIEST dick I've ever seen. not only small but thin. like I little pinky. this man is like 6'2 maybe? and skinny. I mean imagine going through life with that shit 😂😂😂 disappointing every woman you've ever dated 🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣🤣 Jesus Christ. he should have paid me for having to look at that shit. 

I left at 2am and they kept going into the wee hours, like close to 5am. I have NO idea what happened but I heard at least someone got pegged. I truly pray for whoever was getting pegged by those ladies bc they were all pretty sadistic based on the impact they were doing. 😂😂 rip to your asshole dude. 

that was it. and I feel better now that I got all that out. whew!!!