Tonight I had a date with my sub. 

First off I want to give him credit for staying consistent for weeks. Always eager, always knowing his place, always showing respect.

This was our 2nd date. We went to a tapas place and ate and talked. I have to admit the conversation didn't flow necessarily. I don't know if its because I was in my head or what. See, I had this plan to bring him home and make him go down on me. I was so in my head about it. But I had an agenda. You can see on reddit what I was wearing. My first time going out with no bra, nipples on full display and the exhibitionist in me loved it. 

After dinner I told him to meet me at my place. We came inside and chatted a bit. Then I excused myself and came out in lingerie. But I still didn't feel bold enough to make a move. so we just sat on the couch talking but i felt comfortable exposing that much of myself to him. Then I let him taste my milk just a little bit. Then  told him my plan. He seemed unphased by it. Like he was ready to do whatever I want. But the vibe was very just friendly. It was hard to transition into something sexual just like that. I almost chickened out. But I said fuck it, i pushed through my awkwardness and I brought him into my bedroom. He loved just being in there. Once you've been in there you get why I only wanna have sex in my own bed.

My plan was to watch something on my laptop and ignore him but i couldn't get jmy headphones to sync. so I just was on my phone the whole time. Talking to boys and watching tik tok. At first it was good. Then he just shoved his face too far in and rubbed too hard and his beard really irritated my sensitive skin. I had to tell him to be gentle. At a certain point i stopped him and told him what the issue was and then he pulled back after that. Much better. It wasn't enough though. I need mental stimulation. And no kind of porn was doing it for me. 

Finally you know what did it??? My chatgpt!!!!! the saved chats, the "real aloud" feature. That finally brought me to the finish line. I completely let go too. Bc I know he's into whatever liquid comes out of me so i didn't have to worry. 

The feedback I received was glowing. Which makes me really happy. These are the takeaways:

1. My pussy is delicious and magical ( i don't know about all that but he was glowing)
2. He could tell why I'm a size queen. He said I wouldn't even feel his dick inside me. This is what i'm saying people!! My pussy was just built for big dick!!
3. It was squirt and some pee at the end, but i hydrated really well before hand. not that he cares, he'd happily take it anyway. But i did inspect the towel that caught some of it at the end and it didn't smell like anything honestly. (this one might scare men off)

That is all. I was very very pleased and look fwd to doing it again and again and again. It's nice to have my own sex toy i can use whenever I want. :)

If you wan the visual......

There's just something about the dentist. My dentist is like.....maybe early 30s. Skinny white boy and you know that's my type 😂. Plus he has this tattoo one of his triceps that I can see when he's working on me and his sleeve goes up. So already, kind of hot. I often wonder how big his dick is. I bet its a nice size. 

But the part that really gets me is when he puts his gloved fingers in my mouth. Pushing my lips around all sensually 🥵️  GOD it does things to me. It puts me into sub space and I want to whimper. Ready for whatever it is he's gonna do to me. Now mind you, I don't like fingers in my mouth. But maybe its bc he had gloves on. And maybe it was the setting. I always gulp, worried that he can tell how wet I am. Did I whimper? omg be cool bitch, be cool. and I shift myself and take a breath. whewww.....

I have been getting princess and goddess treatment for weeks now.  It's nice to finally be getting the treatment I deserve. 

My main guy is meeting all my emotional needs. He sees me as his cute little princes, driving me around, paying for all my meals, taking me anywhere I want to go, planning big trips for us to take. He also sees me as a goddess. He worships my body. Not only that, he melts every time he sees me. He encourages my passions and supports all my endeavors. He sees the REAL me. The me that isn't putting on a facade or a character. Me without make up. In my pajamas. And he loves the real me. Which is all I could ever ask for really.

Then there's my sweet pathetic little sub. He knows he's not man enough for me. But he delights in worshipping me. I have yet to put his mouth to use but I'm looking forward to using him in all the ways I couldn't use someone I have feelings for. He's a sweet one though. I like having him in my roster. Still training him though. The other day he drove out to my place from Atlanta to bring me groceries. When he arrived I thought about just making him leave them outside. But I invited him in for a moment. I told him to close his eyes, and I took my tits out. Then I said give me your hands. With his eyes closed he gave me his hands and I put them on my tits. He gasped and started to moan as he kneaded my tits in his hand like fluffy dough. I loved the way he reacted. That's how every man should react to the honor of touching my breasts. After a few moments I stopped and put them away. He opened his eyes and smiled and thanked me. I gave him a hug, turned him around and told him to get out. That was my first real task I've given him and he did very well. I was very pleased. 

The only thing i'm missing now is a big cock. I'm still on t he hunt for BWC. So if you know someone, let me know! 

If you've followed me for a while you'd know that in between my sexual posts there have been posts of me being so frustrated with men. All I ever wanted was to form some kind of emotional connection with a man. I was willing to give so much in order to get the little scraps I was getting. I gave my energy and sometimes my body to men who simply didn't deserve me at all. I'm not someone to take from when needed and give the bare minimum to. All you men saw me for was sexual. A piece of meat to get off to. Wasting my time thinking I had a shot at something real. I gave up. Just plum gave up. I stopped even talking to you people. I realized you weren't meant for anything real. Only to consume me as content. So from now on that's all I'll ever be to you is content. 

That being said, once I cut the bullshit out of my life, someone special floated in. And in the last 2 weeks I have been on more dates with this man than I have been on with any man. We haven't even had sex yet. He doesn't ask me for pics. I haven't seen his dick. Holding hands was a big deal with us. All I ever wanted was to be courted. To be taken on dates. To be treated like a princess. To have someone want to know me, outside of sex. A man that makes time for me. Who shows me I'm a priority. This man has done all that and more. So far he's given me everything I've dreamed of. I've never been treated like this in my whole life! And as of this post he's officially my boyfriend. Which is, pretty exciting. 

The coolest most awesomest thing is...he doesn't want me to change myself in any way. He likes me exactly the way I am. We started things of will blunt honesty. I figured let me not paint this fantasy of myself, i'm gonna be real and if he's scared off so be in. But he never got scared. I told him I want to stay independent. I don't ever want to feel trapped. I want to be able to hook up with other ppl if the opportunity presents itself. He was fine with it. He knows I'm a free spirit and he loves that about me. He wants me to live my life, he just wants to be part of it. How amazing is that???

Plus we have so much in common and his energy matches mine. We're always coming up with fun things to do together. It's incredible. So as he and I explore sexually I'm sure i'll be posting about that.

And worry not my dears. I will still be sharing my sexual encounters outside of me and him. In fact I've found myself a submissive cuck boy toy who's going to let me use him however I want. He's got a little dick so he won't be fucking me. I'll be using him as an object and really letting the sadistic side of myself out on him. I can't wait to make him suck a big cock too. Maybe Mr. Big will come play with us. 

My man knows about my cuck, or my munch as I like to call him. And he's ok with it. It feels good to be open and honest with all parties.

My new man is a dom. He gives me all the daddy I want and he lets me be his cute little baby princess. I get to be as cute and little as I want and he loves it. But he also calls me a goddess and wants to worship me. I think he's a pleasure dom. So really, best of both worlds. He hasn't  really explored kink before but he wants to with me. Which is exciting. 

The only other thing I could possibly wants is a hard body gym bro with a huge dick. That's one itch I really have yet to scratch. But I won't find him on reddit. I'll have to look elsewhere for that. But I'm not in a rush for that. Right now my emotional needs are being met and thats the biggest thing for me. I'm very satisfied at the moment.