ughhhh lately i've really been wanting to be suckled. My breasts really do not get the attention they deserve. I guess there are other parts of me that end up getting more attention but my nipples really are my spot. I remember when I was a teenager, before I was having sex, I was all about my tits. I would never do or show anything below the waist but I'd happily put my tits in your face. This was back before I had a kid. And I was heavier so they were more firm. Yeah they were never perky. They were always heavy and hung but after all the changes in my body (weight loss, breastfeeding) they aren't full anymore. Sadly. Oh they look great in a bra but thats bc they're all scooped up. But I digress...

Back then nipple play was all i would let them get. Blow jobs and nipple play, that was my thing. I remember I had a boyfriend, the guy who took my virginity, he was 36 (I was 18). He was also the guy who taught me to kiss and now that's how i like to kiss. Which is, very lippy, very little tongue. God we had fun together. His voice was so sexy, we had so much phone sex. He was Chinese, tan skin, not tall although I never remember height even being a thing ppl paid attention to back then. He wasn't particularly attractive but he just knew how to turn me the fuck on. I'm telling you, if the sexual chemistry is right, nothing else matters. He loved my tits. Loved to suck on them and play with them and GOD that turned me on so much. 

He also liked public play. So we would make out in the lobby of my college building, or fool around in the library, but my MOST favorite was when we went to some event in miami beach and we got on the rooftop (how the fuck did we end up there?) where it was empty and he pulled my tits out of my bra and sucked them right there in the open. God what a rush. The feeling of the breeze on my naked breasts was incredible. God i'm getting a little tingly right now just thinking about it. Fuck.

I saw him once, after we broke up. I was already dating the guy who would become my husband. I think we went to a movie. He started feeling me up and God.....i couldn't stop it. After the movie  we were saying goodbye and he did it again, and fuckkkkk i could not stop it. He just knew how to touch me....to make me weak. I told him  I couldn't see him anymore bc I had no self control around him. 


But anyway....this isn't about him. It's about my boobs. They seem to get men's attention but in the end none of them really did more than a small amount of nipple sucking. Such a shame. While they do hang, like sacks, they're still heavy. Nothing feels better than someone sucking my nipples or just touching them while they naturally hang. I think the hottest thing that happened to me recently was when I went to the house of a guy I was seeing last year and wore a crop top with no bra. As we sat on the couch and watched tv my nipples would hang underneath the crop top and he just subtly moved is hands over them, from one side to another. Such a light touch but holy shit it sent shivers down my spine. I was locked in place, couldn't move and in my mind beggggggging him not to stop. He kept going, i began breathing harder, my eyes glued to the movie, then he began to pinch them and thats when i moaned. I honestly think i can cum from having my nipples played with. But no one has ever done it long enough. They see how turned on I get and just wanna fuck me. Which I get. Sometimes I get turned on and just want to jump on  a cock myself.

Come to think of it, the times in my life where I have made bad decisions and no self control have been when guys played with my nipples. It paralyzes me with pleasure. 😂

But I've never had someone focus on them. Just them. For a long time. And I'm really curious about this. I don't know if it would lead to anything or if I would end up masturbating while they did it. But I think I would love a situation where someone came over just for this purpose. To worship my tits then leave. I like the idea of me just sitting watching tv and having someone suckle me. I love the idea of dry nursing bc it adds that element of mothering which i like. I love the idea of a younger guy with an innocence about him finding comfort in suckling on me while i play with his hair. Or maybe doing some kind of exercise on the floor like donkey kicks, with workout gear on but no shirt or bra. Just letting my tits hang and sway while i workout and having someone underneath me, no hands just mouth open, licking and sucking. God that would be so hot. And I'd be sore after bc I'd probably do that for too long. lol. And whatever clever ways I can come up with to have my tits hang and have someone suck on and play with my nipples. I like the idea of being at a restaurant without a bra and leaning fwd with my arms on the table and letting them hang underneath and having my date pull and twist my nipples under the table while sitting perfectly still at the table eating and drinking like nothing is going on. That's the thrill of public play plus him having control over me bc I would be paralyzed in pleasure. 

Gosh guys don't even know the world of fun they could unlock if they gave my tits more attention.

Also side note, would LOVE to find a big titty girl to play with. And just suck on and play with each others tits. Whether its just that or if we're friends who hang out and also do that. Either way would be great. So, if any big titty girls are reading this....call me. 

Basically my tits need attention, is what i'm saying. 

If you're not into it...if it doesn't make you smile and feel feelings, you won't get me. 

I have decided I will no longer be accepting anything less than this.

That is all.

Thanks to that last young one for absolutely proving my fucking point. Every. Single. Time. And this is why I have age limits. ​🙄

The sound in my head all day when Mr. Big Cock says he can see me one more time before he leaves 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍

A little token for those of you who followed me here from Reddit. I got a new bra so I thought id show it off...

I don't know why it took me so long. My kid is obsessed with them. It wasn't till I held one of his stuffed animals when I was feeling high anxiety and it lulled me to sleep that I realized the power of having something to hug. As a single (but extremely affectionate) woman I often long for someone's touch. Even a hug from a friend or family member. I'm pretty alone here. And while I like my independence, I am human and crave human contact. I decided the next best thing was getting a plushie of my own.

So I got her. She's adorable. She's a squishmallow and I think she's a strawberry shortcake. And I love having something to hold at night. Gosh who knew how much it would help? And now I've also noticed it feels good to let out all the sappy mushy lovey dovey things i miss saying to someone. I can't actually say those things to anyone. But to her, I can say the most over the top sappy mushy loving things and it feels good to be able to say that stuff again. Even if its just to a sqishmallow. And with her it's never "too much" or "over the top". It's really wild. I've had someone to love most of my adult life. It's strange not having that anymore.

If anyone reading this didn't come from Reddit let me give you a little backstory.
When I moved into my apt I got into the habit of being scantily clad when the maintenance man comes over. Not on purpose but he usually just shows up when i'm walking around not very dressed. Now it's become a fun pass time for me. To dress semi exposed and act like nothing out of the normal is going on. Just to see his reaction.

A different guy came today. Not my usual older teddy bear of a guy. This one was an older Asian man with an accent. He walked in with a serious face but after a few min around me he began smiling and making little jokes. It was cute. As usual I didn't know when he would show up so I just made sure to be wearing what I would want to open the door in. Today it was pajama pants and a white cropped tank top. My breasts (and nipples especially) were quite visible. I plan to wear this when those 3 guys come back to change my smoke detectors. That's going to be really fun. These were younger guys and they were very friendly. I want to give them a nice eye full. 

God I love being single and living alone.

Probably me in my purest form. No matter how much I fight it. I hold back soooooo much bc I know this is an acquired taste. 

Do I want to be in diapers? No. Do I want to be treated like a cute little princess? Yes. I want to whine and be needy and clingy and be spoiled? Yes. Praise? YES. Just be fucking sweet with me. Even when things get really dirty in the bedroom, sweetly degrading me. I want a protector. Am I gonna have a baby voice? yes. I know this makes some people cringe. So I'm careful. But I'd love to find a guy who loves it. Who wants to be "daddy", who thinks i'm so fucking adorable. When it comes to this dynamic, the mental excitement is SO powerful that looks aren't really important. It's all about energy. The right energy is mind blowing and addicting. 

This fantasy also includes some taboo roleplay. But this is a very special one bc this isn't a sometimes thing. It's not just in the bedroom. This one is very much an all encompassing one. I feel like it would be a deep infatuation for me. Burning hot and fast and maybe settling into a deep loving friendship. That would be pretty rad. 

It requires a certain kind of man though. He's got to have his own place and be comfortable enough financially to treat me to things. This is after all, a fantasy. I don't ask for a lot but would love a guy who wants to take care of me.  i.e. take me on dates, plan special outings for me, etc. 

The bummer about this fantasy is that i'm in my 40s. So I feel like I don't really fit the whole "little girl" thing. But if you saw me, you'd see, its very much me. 

I got a taste of this about a year ago and I have never been more turned on and melty in my whole life. So I've been chasing it ever since.

It's hard to find a gentle daddy dom, who wants someone over the age of 24. lol