I like the idea of being a woman in power. I also like the idea of being BAD.

Today I had to do some work stuff at home and for some reason, needed a little stress relief. I scooped my big heavy tits out of my top and let them hang over my bra. Then I got my nipple clamps out and attached them. The heft of them pulling on my nipples was incredible. Then I went and got my clit sucker toy and brought it out and put it in place. I turned on my laptop cam and imagined myself in a zoom meeting with other men. I thought....imagine conducting a professional meeting, discussing projects and scheduling with all cameras on in the gallery. Only, when someone else begins talking I pan my camera down to expose my big tits with nipple clamps. What would their reactions be? I want to entice them, to tease them. I look to see who joins me. I notice some men trying to continue the meeting as nothing out of the ordinary has happened. Maybe as to not draw attention and scare me away from my actions because they want this to continue. The same way you didn't want to change the channel when the porn channels came in clear by some fluke miracle back in the day. I ask some questions, keeping on the topic at hand, camera continuing to point at my tits only now I'm swaying them side to side letting the ball and chains from my nipple clamps sway and clink together. 

Then I see it,  a camera tilted just low enough, neck down, cock in hand. It's a magnificent cock too. I let out a little moan at the sight of it. Someone  plays a video of a presentation they've been working on. Everyone uses this as a distraction. Hands racing down, belts coming off, shirts being lifted. Till there they are, a beautiful chorus of penises being stroked. I lean back and bend one knee up on my chair to expose my pussy. This sends them into a fury. At this point no one is able to pretend to care about the meeting. I see hands on cocks, and what's even hotter, all their wedding rings. 

I ask them if they want this pussy. I ask them if they'd like to take my pussy together. One by one. Shooting a load in me. Feeling the slickness of the load before them. Knowing they're all taking turns breeding their boss. Then I pull out a huge cucumber I've been eyeing for days. I lean my mouth into frame and attempt to fellate this massive fruit (yeah it's a fruit, look it up),  it's girth absolutely stretching my lips. When it's got enough slobber on it, I run it down my tits, my stomach and finally down to my steaming engorged pussy. I tell them I'm going to fuck myself with it and imagine it's them fucking me. And I want them to give me the biggest load they've got. They begin vigorously stroking now. I insert the cucumber  and let out  gasp at the coldness of it. I slowly push in and out, allowing my pussy to moisten and welcome it in. After a few strokes she finally opens up and begins to swallow it. My labia stretched across the massive  girth. Another moan. God I can't believe how good this feels. I manage to get it almost all the way in, minus about 2 inches a the top. How did I fit it all? I begin slowly pulling it out. Then in, then out. My lips hanging on tightly with suction. Now I'm too enthralled to even look at the screen. All I can do is pound my pussy with this long thick massive cucumber. I begin to squirt all over my seat but I can't stop. Beating my pussy like it owed me money. I was in a trance now. All I could think about was this giant cucumber and completely surrendering myself to it. I squirt a few more times until finally I manage to snap back to reality. I look at the screen and see cumshots on stomachs. On full display. To show me, like proud children showing their teacher how well they did the assignment. I smiled with pride and slowly removed the cucumber, covered in my creamy discharge. I sat up and put my tits away, fixed my hair and aimed the camera back at my face. My cheeks were flushed and hair was stuck to my face. The men all tilted their cameras up again. Trying to regain a sense of professionalism. I told them I was very pleased with what I saw today.

​And then next week's meeting...would be held in person. 

​How would you feel? The most turned on I’ve ever been was in college when my boyfriend was playing with my pussy while I was talking on the phone with another guy. I was so turned on. It was the perfect set up. Mental stimulation coming from the guy on the phone and the physical touch of my boyfriend. I wanted so badly for him to fuck me, and I wanted the guy on the phone to hear all of it and jerk off to it. I wanted to hear him jerking off. God it would have been the ultimate for me. But my boyfriend was upset by this and wanted me to focus on him. And I get that. So he stopped altogether and left me horny and untouched. But man that was the one time in my life where I felt like I had a major case of blue balls. I was pissed. I came so close to immense pleasure and it was all taken away from me. 

It’s just that I get more from the mental stimulation than the physical. And I’ve never had both at the same time to that degree. Somehow being able to detach one from the other makes it easier for me. I can just enjoy the physical for what it is, a beautiful supplementation to the mental. It would be SO explosive.


You guys are willing to share your partner with another man in a threesome, so what about a threesome where you’re the only one touching her? And you get help making her cum. Not from a sex toy, but from a headless voice over the phone. Would you ever do it? I have spent so many years trying to find that again. I need it so so bad. It could really unlock something for me. It doesn’t even have to be phone. It could be text even. Would you place importance on the fact that you were physically the one to make her orgasm? Or would it bother you too much to have that help?

I'm genuinely curious if anyone would be up for this. This is on my list of experiences I want to have so badly. 

Sometimes when I text with someone (really only one person right now who I feel comfortable doing this with) I get so turned on and I say all sorts of things to myself. If I had a guy there I could say it to him. Think about it, t would take away my natural shyness and bring out the freaky side of me. Imagine reaping all the rewards of turning a girl on without having to do the mental gymnastics. It would only be for oral. After that i'd put the phone down and have him fuck me senseless. 

Maybe we could take pics or video (no faces) to share with the guy on the phone. This way everyone gets off. Hot hot hot. And pretty kinky I think. 

I would love to have a boy toy that was just there to please me in whatever way I want including this way. 

Probably me in my purest form. No matter how much I fight it. I hold back soooooo much bc I know this is an acquired taste. 

Do I want to be in diapers? No. Do I want to be treated like a cute little princess? Yes. I want to whine and be needy and clingy and be spoiled? Yes. Praise? YES. Just be fucking sweet with me. Even when things get really dirty in the bedroom, sweetly degrading me. I want a protector. Am I gonna have a baby voice? yes. I know this makes some people cringe. So I'm careful. But I'd love to find a guy who loves it. Who wants to be "daddy", who thinks i'm so fucking adorable. When it comes to this dynamic, the mental excitement is SO powerful that looks aren't really important. It's all about energy. The right energy is mind blowing and addicting. 

This fantasy also includes some taboo roleplay. But this is a very special one bc this isn't a sometimes thing. It's not just in the bedroom. This one is very much an all encompassing one. I feel like it would be a deep infatuation for me. Burning hot and fast and maybe settling into a deep loving friendship. That would be pretty rad. 

It requires a certain kind of man though. He's got to have his own place and be comfortable enough financially to treat me to things. This is after all, a fantasy. I don't ask for a lot but would love a guy who wants to take care of me.  i.e. take me on dates, plan special outings for me, etc. 

The bummer about this fantasy is that i'm in my 40s. So I feel like I don't really fit the whole "little girl" thing. But if you saw me, you'd see, its very much me. 

I got a taste of this about a year ago and I have never been more turned on and melty in my whole life. So I've been chasing it ever since.

It's hard to find a gentle daddy dom, who wants someone over the age of 24. lol 

Let me preface this with "this is a fantasy". That means it's just something in my head that sounds exciting to me. Don't know if I'll ever actually do it but it's something that seems to hot to me.

Now mind you, I've been with younger men before.  I've had a few boys in their mid twenties. All sexy in their own ways. But I've only managed to be this version of myself (bossy, confident, and we're doing what i want to do) with one of them and i think its because it was a ONS out of town. When I get to know a guy and like him i tend to revert to my natural state which is subby little girl. it's a bummer bc these younger guys want the bossy confident older woman, and i really want to deliver but things just have to align in a certain way for me to be that way. My mental state/mood/time of the month all play a role. Usually if i don't really care about you and i'm just using you, or if i'm pissed off, it's a lot easier for me to use you as an object.

Funny enough thats how things started with Mr. Big, I was just going to use him as my play thing. I was gonna use his big dick and make him do whatever I wanted. He even told me he would be on call anytime I wanted him, he would come over and be my devoted boy toy. But alas, I turn to mush with him now. And ironically now that I'm busy and focusing on other things in life (not men), I'm more in the mood to have him come and service me. Only now he's too busy with life stuff to be on call for me. So it has me fantasizing. 

What  is my ideal younger man experience?

Is it....an intellectual type that I can have deep conversation with? Who makes me feel desired and sexy. I did get that. and its amazing :)

Is it a guy who basically worships me? spends hours trying to please me physically and in every other way possible? it's hard. most guys like that want to be physically submissive and then it becomes about me doing shit to them. And I'm greedy. I want it to be about me. If you knew me, you would know how much of myself i give to men and their needs. That's why I want an arrangement like this to be all about me. 

Probably my biggest thrill would be to get one of these young gym rat types. ugh someone really dumb and pretty. I would treat him like an absolute object. He can go be whatever he wants to be with other girls his age and be in charge. but when he comes to mommy, he's my pet and he just wants to make me happy. He's gotta be this tough guy out in the real world, around other men and around the women that pursue him. But secretly he loves to let down his guard and let me baby him and snuggle him and then make him please me. Give him that validation he's secretly looking for. ugh god, i have so much dirty talk built up for this. Still haven't found that dynamic yet. And who knows if I could even keep up that side of myself. still i would love to try. 

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