Felt high, might not be later

 I’m laying here….high on mushrooms…feeling very….tactile. I wanna touch. I want bodies. I want touch. I want…sex. I just want to be present in the physical. Living in this physical realm. Music on….we can’t hear each other. We’re not relying on sounds of pleasure. No we’re not even concerned with pleasing each other. Because just touching….the pleasure from touch….is so exquisite in this moment. And we’re lost touching, and the music…we feel it deep in our bodies….and we’re completely liquid….intertwined…god….your body feels so good. I want to live here. Right now. This…..you….the dark room and the soft pink lights….the music…melting into you. Feeling you on me is the best feeling I’ve ever felt.

I’m confused. I’m confused about so many things. I don’t like pretty boys. But….beautiful boys? Like….androgynous? They make me all discombobulated. I’m intrigued by trans women….but it’s their masculine qualities that attract me. I’m so turned on by a feminine guy who’s into women. A gay man who’s curious? why does this do things to me? Strong aggressive women make me melt. My brain wants to make sense of it all. I just know I kind of want to touch all the corners of this. But….sigh….everything is in my head. I feel like I need to have a sexual awakening somewhere out there. Where I can be a total stranger. Totally brand new. No name. No title. no history. I’m just this body…this energy….and this pink light…

Fuck…mushrooms are the only time where I can quiet my stupid demisexual needs. And just give in to the physical

I wanna kiss….can we please kiss? Pleeeeaaassssseee. Fuck.

“I bet you wanna rub your pussy on my dickprint, or we could hang out watch a movie how’s a chick flick” this song is on a loop in my headphones. Whhheeeeeewwww

I watched a video of myself getting fucked….and it was like I was watching someone else….and all I could think was wow….she’s sexy. I like seeing her body.

I want a body right now. That I can look at and enjoy the beauty of. God, bodies are so beautiful. They’re soooooooo mmmmm….fleshy. Let me touch you……god I love touching you

I should never be alone on mushrooms….

I wanna rub my pussy on your dickprint. I wanna rub my pussy on your face. My pussy has never been more beautiful than it is right now….in this room…and I want to give it to you. I want to look deep into your eyes…I want you to feel how deep this feels right now….us…you….how much I want this…how much I want you….you….deep into your eyes…..and then sit right on your face.

I made myself cum. But that just made me hornier. So I fucked my pussy. Godddddddd I miss being fucked so bad. My pussy hasn’t been properly fucked since Feb. I need a deeeeep pounding so bad.

​ What a mess….what a mess….god I’m fucking sexy when I’m like this…..