Happy New year 2026

2025 has taught me some really really hard and painful lessons. It seemed like one thing after another would knock me down....and I would keep getting up. I'm proud of myself for getting up. I'm proud of you for getting up. And in case no one told you this,  I'm really glad you're here with us. 

Of all the painful lessons I learned this year the most painful and difficult has been learning to LET GO. God this one was so hard. It's just so hard when something gets ripped away from you and everything in you is praying and begging to get it back. And accepting that you will never get it back no matter how hard you try or how bad you want it,  is so unbelievably heartbreaking. This year broke me into so many pieces. I've never experienced this before in my life. 

But with all those falls came growth. I worked on myself so much this year. I did the inner work. It was fucking hard. 

I learned to set boundaries and stop betraying myself for other ppl. Stop letting ppl take advantage of my kindness. I learned to stop giving so many chances. If someone wants to be in your life they would.  It's not rocket science. 

I learned that when you do set boundaries and have standards it gets very quiet. It's been a very lonely year. But in that year I created something for myself. I started getting out there and meeting ppl. Going to new places. Having adventures on my own. With no one to share it with, no one to be proud of me. I was proud of me. And that's enough. I've changed so much and built something  I'm very proud of,  just by believing in myself. 

I lost my comfort. And I still struggle those times when I just wanna reach for my phone and say hi.
But I've met so many incredible women. It's been a year of women and female relationships. Which I desperately needed. I wasted too much time centering men.

I went to a tea party with some pretty big Pro Dommes from different cities and made a lot of connections. And my goal for 2026 is to go to London in October for the Femdom Ball. Which the old me would have thought was impossible and scary. She would have thought I don't deserve to spend that money on myself.

But I've learned to break the programming from my ex. I've also learned to say no to him. Setting boundaries with him especially  has been very cathartic.

I'm also trying to learn not to spin stories based on what my brain comes up with. And only say,  this is all I know, these are the facts. Its information. Not judgment. I'm a work in progress. I still def have my triggers. Silence still feels cruel to me. But I'm working through it. 

I'm learning to actually listen to my intuition and not dismiss it based on logic. Sometimes there might be no logical reason for how I feel, but my intuition has never been wrong.
 I'm blocking now. I don't give grace to ppl who don't deserve it anymore. I'm not gonna give ppl the benefit of the doubt. I'm not gonna stay quiet to make ppl comfortable. I'm holding people accountable. Let them be uncomfortable. Block, block, block. Make room for better ppl to come into my life.

2025 has also taught me that I can create a whole new life for myself and I get to decide what that looks like. I don't care what people think. 

I'm sunshine and rainbows and humor and sex, and anyone who sticks around is lucky to be around me. 🥰
I don't have to worry about being forgotten. I'm pretty unforgettable. 

I am actually super excited for 2026. I did the hard stuff for a year, and this year will be a year of receiving abundance. 

I truly want to wish love to all the ppl I said goodbye to this year. I hope that one day I can reconnect in some way with the ones who mattered.

And to you, dear reader. Thank you for reading. I hope good things for you in 2026.