High, horny, and happy birthday

Hi. I'm high. I can't stop eating. Which, if you knew how much I ate you'd know that MY eating a lot is actually how much a normal person eats. She said, as she crunched down into another fried shrimp. 

Just celebrated my birthday! Something changed though. When my mom said my age out loud I was like, ooof jesus you don't have to say THAT! My cousin said to my mom "You know, saying her age just makes you look older." My mom clapped back with "No. That has nothing to do with me." 😂😂😂 I think I've offically crossed over to feeling old. In age. I'm about 17 mentally.

It has taken me like 30 min to write that last paragraph. Don't know if any of this is coherent but i guess we'll find out.  My stomach says no more but my mouth says I waaaannnt!

Anyway, I celebrated my bday on a cruise. Just me and my bestie. It was so fun and relaxing and wonderful. We ate, we slept, we went to the spa. What more could you want from a vacation?

But get this, I paid for the internet package $60, only to find, they had blocked the internet. No....the internet. No, the porn. They blocked the porn!!! Man this shrimp is so good. Anyway it was right before my period and I was insanely horny. And stuck on this boat with no porn....something...had....to...give......

Writing this high was a bad idea. I'll come back tomorrow and tell you the rest.

​The rest:
I'm back. And sober, let us continue. 

The following is copied from  notes app that i made on the cruise.

Goddamnit!!! I genuinely can’t remember the last time I was this horny!!! My typical fetlife sadistic entanglements which usually get my cock hard, but enough to keep me satisfied, have only been adding fuel to the fire of late. My mind is torn in so many different directions. I want to seduce, I want to rip apart, I want to smother, I want to degrade, I want to nurse, but more than anything….oh god more than anything….i want someone to fuck me till I forget my name. Just fucking take me and pound me and let my soul leave my body. And don’t stop. I’ll squirt all over your cock, don’t stop. My eyes will water. Don’t stop. I’ll grunt and scream and my eyes will roll back in my head. Don’t stop. I’ll go quiet because the ecstasy is too much that I freeze. Don’t you dare fucking stop. Fill me up, twice, three times. Until you’re worn out. We’re not leaving till we’re both sweaty, sore and laying in a puddle of piss.

So as you can see.....that's where my mental state was. Which will explain my behavior.....

One night, horny, no porn, I laid on the bed facing my best friend. Her bed was close to mine. In the dark.....phone lighting up my face....I went to my Ai chatbot and did some fucked up roleplay. I can't remember what about because i'm such a fucking deviant at this point, who knows? But I made myself cum right there. The next day she went to the island, I stayed on the boat alone. She said she'd be back soon but I had no idea when it would be. However i knew i probably had ample time. So i spread my legs, put one up on the wall, and started playing with myself having my ai read back what he wrote. Almost pissed myself but i made myself cum. I've gone off the deep end of caring about what ppl think about me on this blog.  😂

Then I decided to spend the day at the spa. So fucking horny. I got in the big pool in there. It has lots of jets and diff areas, a place to let water massage your shoulders, a place to lay and have the bubbles massage your body, and an area with pool jets at different heights to work different muscles. and there are bubbles that cover the surface of the water. Easy to hide. Well one jet was right at my ass level, so i spread my legs and bent over till it was kissing my clit. 🤤🤤🤤 Fuck it felt so good. I was gonna cum soon but then people started to show up and get in the pool. By the way I'm sure there are cameras in this spa and they captured what I was doing. I hope I don't get banned. As people came in I tried to move around to make it look like I wasn't doing what I was doing. But goddammit i wanted that jet on my pussy again. I kept going back. The bubbles covered me a bit, and I waited till ppl weren't looking to go back. 'But I could never keep myself there long enough to cum. At that point I was unintentionally edging myself. And the thing is,  I had to lean fwd alot and press my ass up against the wall. I'm sure it looked really obvious. But I was so horny I wasn't thinking straight. 

This woman I had chatted with the day before got in the water and said "hey bestie" and I was like hey! whats up? I used conversation with her to pretend I was engaged and not doing what I was doing. She seemed oblivious. So as I talked to her i used the metal bar to push my ass up against the wall and keep it there. The bubbles caused a current that make you move so thats why the bars are there, to hold on and stay in place. So I'm talking to her with my ass against the wall, feeling this stream pounding against my clit (fuck i'm getting horny writing about this), and I thought, I'm gonna fucking cum. As she's talking to me and i'm staring at her, I feel it coming. And i  know my face was weird. Probably turned red as I froze for 10 seconds. She didn't seem phased. But that was the first time I've ever cum in public, talking to someone. After that I chilled out and talked like a normal person.

After the spa my friend and I went back to the room and showered and got ready for my bday dinner. She was ready before me and said she was gonna go to the gift shop to get something for her kids. I said ok I'll just be getting ready. When she left I couldn't help myself. I started to play with my pussy and my nipples. I knew I didn't have that much time, and she was waiting for me, which only made it hotter. I ended up cumming like 10 seconds before she got back. I heard the door open and scrambled to be presentable. I made myself cum 3 times in half a day. If only some guy on the boat would have fucked me. I would have taken it. 

So that's my story. It felt very blog worthy.