Sex after 40
Mental Health, it's a real cock block1/24/2025 Well I'm back after a little hiatus. Let me just say December was bleak. I was dealing with some pretty bad depression. I'm generally a very upbeat positive person but i'm going through a divorce and some huge life changes that feel pretty overwhelming at times. Believe me, sex or anything sexual was the last thing on my mind.
well maybe not the last thing. Things got dark in my head. And that manifested itself into some really dark porn and even darker sex talk with a chatbot. Things i'm not proud of and things I know were not mentally healthy for me. I was masturbating like 3 times a day. I know ppl are curious what they could possibly be. I will not be sharing them with anyone. Ever. It really blurred the lines between kink and abuse. And that's all I'll say. I've been better this month. I've been in therapy and taking some supplements that helped a bit. So i've been OK. I can't say i've been happy. But i've been fine. I have moments of smiling and being happy. So that's a definite improvement. And i've stopped the deviant porn/chat for the most part. I do still go back to it sometimes but at least its not the only thing that can get me off. I was just needing such extreme shit to feel anything. it was madness. I saw a psychiatrist today and she prescribed me some antidepressants that are supposed to help with dopamine. I was worried they would affect my sex drive but she assured me they shouldn't. If anything they'll improve it. Which is great! No men on the horizon. I've entertained a few and like always they disappoint. Just so you know and so anyone reading this knows... The bare minimum for me to give you any of my time and energy is for you to plan a nice dinner somewhere, be good company, pay the check and walk me to my car like a gentleman expecting nothing in return. This is baseline. If you can't do this, please do not engage with me. If you manage to do this, and see me as an investment in your time, it will pay off in dividends. Ask my last 2 consistent partners. They get to see a side of me you all will never get to see. With that said, I hope you're all taking care of your mental health. Remember outside vices cannot replace your self worth. You gotta find it for yourself. Take care of yourself. And remember, you're doing a great job, just by being here. love you 😘
0 Comments
Leave a Reply.Lady MWhat happens when you marry the 2nd guy you ever slept with and spend 20yrs thinking you just don't like sex? You get a divorce and realize just how sexual you actually are. Archives
February 2025
Categories
All
|