Things have been happening so fast

Things have kind of shifted in my life and  I'm going with the flow. 

I was very much working on my website and trying to build a place where I can redirect everyone to and talk about my style of domination and what I offer. Both online and in person. But that has kind of taken a back seat at the moment because I find myself swimming in femdom events and I'm loving it. It's so good for me.

As of now I have events lined up from Wed-Saturday of next week. I'm hoping I can maybe find myself a nice sub to come rub my feet at least. I have many needs but I figured foot worship is a good place to start. Low investment. If he stays that, cool , or it could grow into something else.

I have a mentor now, she's a pro-domme, and I love that she really saw me and understood my commitment to authenticity. And how I don't want to do anything for the shallow desires of men. My dominance is about me and what I want and anyone who wants to experience it needs to earn it. 

In meeting people, and seeing how they perceive me, I really do realize just how incredible I am. I have so much to offer a sub. Not just the psychological stuff, which I excel at. But in how I can make him feel. I believe that's something special about me. How I can make others feel. And that's not even counting that I'm fucking gorgeous. I know ppl see me as cute, and I am. And I think that's a superpower. But I am also genuinely very beautiful. 

I'm currently at a crossroads. I'm trying to figure out how my Domme side presents in person. Like, is it ok to be cute and sweet and still command obedience? Does it work? I plan to find out. Also, I have really been adamant about not sexualizing myself because men always just want to consume me and I don't want to give them any ammunition. But men are very visual. I suppose once I have a loyal regular it won't matter as much how I look every time. But I need to embrace my sexiness. Not hide my body, but, allow it to empower me. I will never show nudity. But....you know.... cool boots,  fishnets, maybe cute shorts or panties or maybe a cute body suit, a bra, fishnet top. Something that stands out. And I really want to lean into my bigness being my power. Rolls, gut, whatever, wrap that shit in fishnet body stockings and sit on his face. lol 

Ultimately the best version of me is one where I am genuinely myself. So right now I'm trying to find myself....as a Domme. And that requires putting myself out there irl. So that's what I'm doing! :)