exploring...

my porn lately has been wild. like....ok....theres the kind of porn you watch bc its extreme and you need that to get off but would never do any of it. Then there's the porn where you're like......do I want this? bitch do you WANT this???? this? the kind of thing you were appalled at before?

and before all y'all motherfuckers start getting in my DMs talkin bout "what were you watching?" its not. for you. to know. y'all don't need to know everything about me. i reserve certain things just for my fantasies. 

buuutttt.....some of this stuff is making me question how much of a freak i truly am. cuz damn. lol! this is the point of my blog, my journey!! its a sexual journey and i've come so far from the prudish housewife who couldn't say cock or even "SEX" out loud. 

but truly, it would take a certain person and a certain chemistry to bring some of this stuff out. i don't  have a list of kinks to try. so many guys are like "what do you wanna do? tell me".  i know most men are looking to try "things", for me its more about different dynamics and connections. and how extreme a partner is would probably determine what i expose about myself. i keep this stuff pretty close to the chest. if it comes out organically then cool. but it has to be something both pp are into. and not something i need. but like.....clearly something me in is drawn to it.

although i have encountered some pretty extreme guys in the past. some were tooooooo much. and a couple...well damn....they fucking woke something up in me that i didn't know i had. my brain was like ugh no and my pussy was like bitch you don't speak for me!

so yeah, its interesting!!!! just have to find the right ppl to explore with ​🙈