I miss dick

It's been 4 weeks now since I last had dick. The best dick  so far. But life, ya know? 

I'm in this place where it's starting to creep up on me. The need. It's not full blown yet. I still have some time. But the craving is there. I miss being stretched out. I miss the bliss I get from giving an enthusiastic blow job.  God I love dick so much. 

However my need for connection is much much greater. I've been so isolated. I am starving for genuine connection. I value friendship so much more. It's so much harder to come by. I keep getting this idea of connection dangled in front of me as bait and its always a bait and switch.

I wish I could be that girl that just meets up for sex or whatever kind of sexual act but it's such a teeny part of me. I have to be in the right mood and that mood comes around so seldomly. Guys just don't get it. To them, its all about the physical. That seems to be the best thing. I get off on the emotional shit. That's what allows me to tap into the primal part. I can't put one before the other. It doesn't work that way. Maybe men need the physical to allow themselves to tap into a vulnerable emotional spot. But that starts the conversation about men not being taught to express emotions so they bury them in sex. And as much as I wish this was a platform to spark discussion it never seems to go that way. 

anyway...yeah.. i miss dick 😢