Is it bad I want them to see?

Sitting here pumping like a good mommy and i get an email letting me know maintenance will be coming by this month to do an annual fire inspection. 

Having my soul sucked out through my nipples turns me on so much. I feel like I'm oozing sex even though I probably look like a raggedy mess bc I have to wear a special bra to keep the flanges in place so I can pump hands free. It's not a sexy sight to behold. 😂  Even though it FEELS like fucking Jessica Rabbit on my end. lol!!! I feel like i have big giant juicy tits in your face dripping with milk. I may be more obsessed with boobs than most men. The truth is they're merely udders. FUCK. sorry.....this feels to good......hold on....

Ok sorry. Anyway it feels so good to have them pulled and stretched. I find it very erotic to watch them go up and down into the flanges. Imagine how erotic it will be when milk begins to spurt out with each thrust! 🥵️ Ugh ok I need to stop. lol. I've been power pumping at night to mimic a cluster feeding. 20 min pump, 10 min rest, 20 min pump, 10 min rest, 20 min pump. For a while I had so much pain. My nipples were so sensitive to the touch. I was pumping on the lowest setting for days. Wincing with pain each time I flipped the on switch. But the power pumping actually did something incredible. It sped up the process of my nipples getting used to this kind of stimulation. Yesterday I went almost the entire day without pumping bc I was so busy and then my son got out of school early. But around 6pm my nipples were ACHING to be stretched. They were craving it so bad. Like a submissive girl on her knees begging for cock, they were begging to please be stretched. So I locked my door and put a blanket over the pump to make it quieter. And not only did it not hurt, it felt SO GOOD. I can't even explain it. It was so erotic. Even at the highest setting there was no pain. It almost wasn't enough. After I was done pumping I touched my nipples. Normally it would hurt. But this time it didn't. I squeezed and pulled. No pain. But the pleasure was there. I'm getting wet just talking about it. Fuck.  I wish I could squirt all over a cock while having my nipples pumped. I've been posting on snapchat. So far no one has been interested in seeing my journey on there. I can't blame them. It makes me look like one of the many girls on reddit trying to make money off men. LOL. just as this blog is free, so is my snapchat. I just overshare. lol. It's just easier to be an exhibitionist in a place where its temporary and people can only see....not save. But it's a lot of nipple and boobs and that probably gets old unless you genuinely want to see the process. 

Anyway back to the point of this post. Is it bad that I want to be sitting here like this, pumping when the maintenance guys come in? Is it bad  I want to lock eyes with them? Then take off the flanges and expose my tits and have them take turns nursing until i'm satisfied? Maybe one guy on each nipple. And they can just be an hour behind doing the rest of their inspections because mommy needed milking. Is that bad??