Life update/naughty business

A little update on me. I have decided to be celibate for the time being. Don't know how long. Could be for the end of the year. Could be 6 months. Who knows. I've also cut off contact with men. As you can see comments are off. I don't go on reddit anymore. The only reason I don't delete my account is bc I worked hard to build it up to what it is and I don't want to delete it on a whim. Although I might at some point. 

But I thought about it, I don't want bad experiences to ruin something I love. And I love writing about sexual things. I built this blog as a home for all my stories and experiences. Despite being over guys I still have sexual desires. And honestly cutting off comments feels like no one is here but me and kind of lets me open up more than I normally would. 

As for my life at the moment, its going really well!! I've been focusing all my energy on me and I've been having so much progress on my life goals. I'm super super excited to see what I can accomplish! 

With all that being said, I will say I was very productive today. I'm making strides towards my professional goals. So I thought to myself, self love is a form of self care. And giving myself pleasure is one of the best things I can do for myself!! So after this you can read about that. cheers!

I'm gonna be honest, I can't remember the last time I masturbated. Wait...it was at the beginning of last week. It's just been quick ones. Watch some porn, flick the bean under my pants, that sort of thing. But today I had the time and the freedom to have a real love session. So I got out my trusty red towel and dug in my drawer for toys to use. Ugh I'm sick of always using the same ones. Today I chose the clit sucker, the nipple clamps (bc they felt sensitive af today), and the dildo for my strap on. I don't think I've ever used it for vaginal penetration before. It's only 5in but its thick and smooth so I thought it would be nice enough. I also got some lube. I wanted to be prepared. Prior to this I had stuck a lube melt inside my pussy. The kind that goes in solid and melts with the heat of your body so that you're proper lubed for that dick. It smells like cocoa butter. I propped my phone up against some pillows and laid down on my towel.

I couldn't wait. I immediately went for my pussy. Touching her, caressing her. I haven't given her any attention in so long, poor thing. With my left hand I began to graze one of my nipples and omg the tingles that went all over my body!! I found myself letting out moans. Wow really? I'm all by myself. But I couldn't help it! Holy shit it felt so good! Shit....this went on....before I knew it the lube had melted and things were feeling really wet. I didn't even have a chance to put on porn, I was in this. I got the dildo and slid it right in. It felt nice, and the round disc at the end of it held it perfectly in place. I loved the feeling of just having something inside me without moving.  Then I started to think about....that  guy who came over and worshiped my body. God I've never had an experience like that before or since. The feeling of having my whole body massaged. The feeling of having my ass massaged and spread, and then....the absolute BEST feeling ever, having him be face deep in my pussy while I was on my stomach. Holy shit man. It was surreal. I don't even know how to explain it. I get tingles when I think about it. That's what I thought about. I kept replaying that over and over in my head. Rubbing the inside of my vagina...where the ridges are...I don't know why but... THAT'S the spot. 

It started to make me crazy. Rubbing, picturing my oily body, all my curves, his hands all over me, his face shoved into me from behind. It's weird, not even my husband ever did that to me. Maybe that's why its so very memorable to me. My legs were pushed together, it just feels better that way, and I began to notice squirt puddling up between my thighs. Which was hot. I started to hear my fingers splashing around in it. That sent me. Oof. I began to rub my clit and pull on my nipples. I started to imagine him there and how we would interact. Him loving when I squirt and saying "more please mommy". And I'd say "you want more of mommy's juices?" "Yes please mommy" "ok baby mommy will give you more" And tightening my ab muscles until i could feel more squeeze out. "There you go baby, more of mommy's sweet juices" "oh thank you mommy" as he laps it up. Well this fucking sent me. I started going harder and harder, I was starting to break a sweat and my goddamn arm was getting tired. But I persisted. "You're doing such a good job eating mommy's pussy" and him unable to respond with anything other than moans because to take his face away from my pussy would have been torture for him. From then on it was just me talking. "mommy's been wanting you to eat her pussy for a while now." "No one has touched mommy in so long." "But your tongue is magic! You're making mommy feel so good."

This went on for a while. And I thought for sure by now I had soaked through this towel because I was NOT holding back. I thought fuck it, I'll just wash the sheets again. Damn I was so close. I really thought I could make myself cum just from this. But alas, it just wasn't enough to get me there. And frankly I was starting to get a sore clit and the wetness felt like...trying to have sex in a pool. wasn't working. 

So I turned to my phone and found whatever I could bc I knew i was close. I found something pretty innocent, a guy sucking a girl's nipples, and that did it for me.  When I got up I was shocked to find there was no puddle. It was all pretty self contained and i guess there just wasn't that much. Though to me it felt like a flood. I did take a picture of the dildo though bc it looked like it got fucked pretty good. It just stayed in place around my muscles the whole time. 

It was fun. I needed that!! And it was fun to update my blog properly again :)