Nipple play evolves: The beginning of the journey.

So its no secret to anyone who follows me, I'm a boob gal. I love my boobs, I love other woman's boobs, I LOVE nipple play. I can't cum without nipple play. I have purchased plenty of nipple toys including my 2 most recent ones. Newsflash, they were disappointing. The pump was cool. But the vibrating nipple clamps were toooo weak. I couldn't feel a thing.

Along with knowing about my love of boobs you may also know that I like to play with the mommy dynamic. That sort of taps into adult nursing. Something I was actually interested in but for me lactation wasn't something i would ever do. Why put my body through that for some guy?

Lately the desire to be milked has been plaguing my thoughts. Thats why I've been searching for the right toy. Something that will give me that immense pleasure...but also the thought of being milked was so hot to me. To be treated like an object, like a hucow (though not 100% sure what that entails). or some kind of animal. I don't know why but that excites my brain. 

Then I started to really think...wait....and honestly I don't know where the thought came from but I had the idea to buy a breast pump. I looked and that same day I found someone selling a brand new pump for a very affordable price like 30 min away. So I made a mission to get it that day. I took it home and popped it on and HOLY shit let me tell you. It felt better than any sex toy i'd ever had. H-O-L-Y shit. I was in ABSOLUTE HEAVEN. So much so that I left them on for 90 min! woops!!! my nippes looked SOOOO delicious after. I'll post that below. 

Since then  I have fallen head over heels with the idea. I need a nursing bra and some supplements to help with milk production. And I need to stay on a strict feeding schedule so my body gets the message that there's a demand. 

I'll admit, at first it was simply something to facilitate this mommy fantasy and to make it way hotter. To entice all the boys to crave my big milky tits. And I thought, you know, if I continue this for real, at some point milk WILL come in. And at some point its going to be noticeable. My first thought is, hide it as much as you can. Never let anyone know. I felt judgment and shame preemptively. But the truth is who cares? Yeah ok it's weird but it's not hurting anyone. People do things with their bodies all the time. Tattoos, piercings, bodybuilding. If my body can do this cool magic trick of producing milk, why not have fun with it?

Breastfeeding the first time around was awful. Soooo much pressure to not give up, i didn't know I wasn't making enough milk, my kid was starving. So much stress and guilt. Not to mention painful as hell. I only lasted a couple months before giving the formula bottle. Once that happened there was no going back. The boob was refused. I had always hoped I'd get a 2nd chance with my next kid but that just wasn't in the cards for me. But THIS is my second chance! Without stress of being responsible for another human life. This time it's just for me!!! For my own enjoyment of it.  It's like getting to cosplay the fun parts of the whole pregnancy/breastfeeding part of my life. The female body is so incredible. I want to tap back into that beautiful process. 

I decided that instead hiding it I would just let it be and OWN it.  I find it very empowering! I am taking control of my own body and doing something that makes ME happy. Sure there's the added benefit that it's hot but even if no one came around to nurse I would still be just as happy on my own. And thats actually kind of huge for me. Finding something that makes ME happy even if no one else cared or was involved. :)

I find this a very spiritual experience. Very divine feminine. And the pleasure I get from the pumping is absolute blisssss.

But who knows, maybe i'll find some good boys to worship my breasts and nurse to keep them from going dry. *wink wink*

This is the beginning of my lactation journey and i'll be sharing the journey on the blog!! 

Enjoy some visuals below!

Video edited on Kapwing

Video edited on Kapwing