Sex after 40
My first time seeing a penis in person. I had a guy friend…..I won’t get into how we met bc I don’t wanna dox myself but I was 16. We talked on the phone before we ever met. Got to know each other. I had never really talked to boys like that before. We had great conversations. This is back when ppl spoke on the phone for hours. We only hung up to sleep. We would be on the phone all day. Watch tv together, eating together, sometimes sitting in silence doing other things. I miss having that kind of connection with someone. I think that’s kind of thing is extinct though. A bygone era. Anyway….i was soooooooooo innocent. If you know me in person you know I seem pretty innocent. Imagine me at 16 super clueless and pure as the driven snow. Our conversation teetered on flirty at times. But I was so clueless I remember asking him…how do you kiss? Like what do you do with your mouth? I mean no one ever tells you. He was like just move your tongue around in their mouth. I said….THAT’S kissing? Sounded so dumb. lol. I remember him telling me to get a candle and drip the hot wax on myself….it was some erotic thing I guess. Sounded like something out of a movie. Also, he was my age just for the record. I don’t think he’d really been with anyone either. I think we were both virgins.
He was this…..weird mix of like loner, intellectual reader type and bad boy. His parents were very Cuban and he only spoke Spanish to them. He had that “papa en la boca” (potato in the mouth) way of talking. If you’ve ever heard Cubans in miami talk you know what I’m talking about. But he read Beowulf and liked industrial music. He was truly too cool. What the fuck was he doing in the reffiest part of miami? He was stoic. But with me I could feel him warm up. Which made me feel so special. That this stoic hard guy felt softness for me. He cared about me. He looked out for me. We had a really beautiful connection. I never really pursued anything with him more than friendship bc I assumed he would never be into me. It was the 90s and chubby meant fat and that was the worst thing you could be. So I didn’t have very high self esteem. But back then, after this guy, anyone I talked to on the phone would fall in love with me. But back to him…let’s call him…Rob. Rob was friends with some of my friends first. Which is how I met him. So we arranged an outing with one of them and us. This worked for me bc I was so nervous to meet him. We had a fun time. I didn’t feel pressure bc my other friend was there and we just had innocent 16yr old shenanigans. I have pictures from that day. And I’m like…I was so fucking pretty. Such a sweet innocent face and long flowing hair down to my ass. Why couldn’t I see it? After that we hung out more but never alone. One night….we met up with Rob at the beach. He had gotten us each a 40oz of some cheap garbage. I never drink. Hello I was 16. And ps…it was gross. lol. But he encouraged me to drink it, he wanted me tipsy. We laid a blanket on the sand and sat down. My girlfriend got drunk and started being silly running up and down the beach. Meanwhile Rob and I sat on the blanket. He said….do you wanna see it? I did, but I was also really nervous. I’d never seen one before. He pulled it out. It was soft. He told me to touch it. It felt warm and really soft. Squishy even. Nothing on my body felt like that. It was a new experience. I just kind of put my hand around it and left it there. I didn’t know what to do. I was clueless. Then it began to grow in my hand. It felt hard. This was all so new to me. He put his hand around mine and began to stroke it. I just froze and let him take over bc I truly didn’t know what I was supposed to do. Meanwhile our friend is maybe like 20ft away and could turn around and see us at any minute. And we’re out in public…at night….his cock in my hand…me jerking him off. It wasn’t long before he came. He aimed for the sand. Then pulled up his pants and acted like it didn’t happen. But here’s the thing….. I wanted more. This awoke something in me. I wanted my friend to GO AWAY. I wanted to explore more. I think we maybe kissed for a few seconds before he asked about taking out his dick. I wanted more kissing. I wanted him to touch my tits. I wanted to be on top of him. I WANTED him. He awoke my sexuality. When my friend was back he suggested skinny dipping in the water but she thought that was crazy and I was way too insecure to ever get naked in front of anyone. He got naked and got in the water. Hoping we would follow. When we didn’t he eventually gave up and got dressed. And that was the first night I ever saw and touched a penis. And I’ll never forget it. Comments are closed.
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