The younger guy fantasy

Let me preface this with "this is a fantasy". That means it's just something in my head that sounds exciting to me. Don't know if I'll ever actually do it but it's something that seems to hot to me.

Now mind you, I've been with younger men before.  I've had a few boys in their mid twenties. All sexy in their own ways. But I've only managed to be this version of myself (bossy, confident, and we're doing what i want to do) with one of them and i think its because it was a ONS out of town. When I get to know a guy and like him i tend to revert to my natural state which is subby little girl. it's a bummer bc these younger guys want the bossy confident older woman, and i really want to deliver but things just have to align in a certain way for me to be that way. My mental state/mood/time of the month all play a role. Usually if i don't really care about you and i'm just using you, or if i'm pissed off, it's a lot easier for me to use you as an object.

Funny enough thats how things started with Mr. Big, I was just going to use him as my play thing. I was gonna use his big dick and make him do whatever I wanted. He even told me he would be on call anytime I wanted him, he would come over and be my devoted boy toy. But alas, I turn to mush with him now. And ironically now that I'm busy and focusing on other things in life (not men), I'm more in the mood to have him come and service me. Only now he's too busy with life stuff to be on call for me. So it has me fantasizing. 

What  is my ideal younger man experience?

Is it....an intellectual type that I can have deep conversation with? Who makes me feel desired and sexy. I did get that. and its amazing :)

Is it a guy who basically worships me? spends hours trying to please me physically and in every other way possible? it's hard. most guys like that want to be physically submissive and then it becomes about me doing shit to them. And I'm greedy. I want it to be about me. If you knew me, you would know how much of myself i give to men and their needs. That's why I want an arrangement like this to be all about me. 

Probably my biggest thrill would be to get one of these young gym rat types. ugh someone really dumb and pretty. I would treat him like an absolute object. He can go be whatever he wants to be with other girls his age and be in charge. but when he comes to mommy, he's my pet and he just wants to make me happy. He's gotta be this tough guy out in the real world, around other men and around the women that pursue him. But secretly he loves to let down his guard and let me baby him and snuggle him and then make him please me. Give him that validation he's secretly looking for. ugh god, i have so much dirty talk built up for this. Still haven't found that dynamic yet. And who knows if I could even keep up that side of myself. still i would love to try. 

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