What happened last night?

 Waking up from what feels like a fever dream. I’m laying here trying to remember what I did and assess the damage.

Last night I was sooooooo horny. Perhaps I was at my peak fertile day bc omg. My sex drive took over and I was OUT OF CONTROL. Honestly while I was feeling like I wanted attention from men yesterday it’s for the best I didn’t get it. I was not thinking straight last night. I did text Mr Big Cock and I was so ready to do whatever he wanted. God I wanted so desperately to be submissive. Tell me what to do, use me, use my body, make me yours. We weren’t able to get together bc I had prior obligations that didn’t allow me to be free this weekend. But when it was bedtime I went to my room ready to be total slut.

In our texts I talked about his cock, our sex, how wet I was. He talked about how cute my little asshole is and how much he wishes he could have it. He wants to plug me next time. I chuckled bc I know nothing is going in there. He even did so much as try to get his cock in last time which is laughable bc I can’t even get a finger in and MR. BIG COCK thinks he’s getting in there. Lol. But he gets me so worked up I’m always like you can try! Last night I told him there was this one time when I couldn’t play with my pussy bc I had surgery and couldn’t bend fwd so I ended up playing with my ass till I came. Not inserting anything. Just tapping and rubbing the opening till I came. He was excited by this. And I thought to myself….I haven’t done it since. I’ve tried to insert things before and every time it’s super unpleasant but I haven’t tried just rubbing and tapping it. So once I got to my room I decided to do it again.

I have this amazing lube with cbd in it and I lubed up my hole and started massaging it. I was shocked at how turned on I got from this. Being soooo close to my pussy and not touching it. Even though it felt like she was BEGGING me to please play with her. But my ass had my attention and it wasn’t letting go. I took multiple videos of this to show Mr. Big. Playing with, rubbing, spreading and exposing, teasing. It looked different to me now. Must have been the absolute lust coursing through my veins. I was turning myself on even more. I played and teased and got so worked up, I put the tip of my finger in. After some time I wanted to try more. So I got my butt plug which I’ve never been able to fit inside me before. And I played with my ass. I wanted to push it in, but it was just too tight. I kept playing with it, allowing myself to open up to it. It began to slowly open. I was getting it in little by little. But then I hit that wall of pain. But something in me needed to keep going. So I added more lube and tried to find the pleasure in the pain.

At this point it had become a mission to see if I could do it. I know men do it all the time, if they can so can I. I was gentle but firm. I tried opening up more. It was a joint effort between the hand pushing in the plug and the muscles around my virgin asshole working together for a common goal. I was wincing but the pain was bearable. I had to keep going. I had to know if I could push passed it. I'd never been this close before. Eventually…*bloop* it was IN! All the way in!!!! I’d NEVER done that before!! Once it was in I didn’t feel pain. It was surprisingly comfortable. I was so excited and proud. I told Mr. Big. He instructed me to show him. So I took pictures and video as I was told. He was very pleased. Which only fueled my lust.

I played with my pussy FINALLY, after all that begging she’s been doing and all that teasing of having my hands so close but not touching her. With my tight little asshole plugged I made myself cum rubbing my clit. Mmm it was good. But this did nothing to stop the absolute hunger inside me to be a total slut. I put on lingerie and began taking pictures of myself which only turned me on more. I began sharing with Mr. Big. But I desperately wanted him to fuck my brains out.

Me with pictures of myself is dangerous bc I am an exhibitionist. But thank god I had some self control. Though for a moment there I did find myself going through my phone thinking of who I could send these to. Luckily I didn’t act on it. Next I got out my Crystal wand. It slid right into my desperate aching needy pussy. And there I was, both holes stuffed. Stretched. I can’t explain how satisfying that felt. I played with my clit, then would pound my pussy, then back to my clit. This dance went on till I came a 2nd time. The glass wand slid right out of my engorged slippery pussy. I was a mess. My thighs were wet and sticky. I had on lingerie and a plug in my ass. And it was late. I was tired. But texting all the dirty things in my head made me want more.

​Just when I thought I was done….my body told me I wasn’t. This bitch is insatiable when she’s ovulating. My God. My mind was not in control last night. My pussy was. And she’s a bossy bitch. In all my fatigue and mess knowing I still had to clean up and change for bed, I began to play with my clit. Fuck…even writing this post is getting her all worked up again. She knows. She’s so hungry…. Anyway I began playing with my clit yet again, watching porn, trying to get off one last time so I can rest! She’s an animal! The things she makes me do!!! This last one required a towel. Bc I was giving it all I had left. And I came. And before she could get her bearings back and ask for more I quickly went to the bathroom to clean up.

I was scared about getting the plug out. In fact it wasn’t easy. I was scared it was stuck!! 😳it took some spinning, some opening and closing of muscles and some elbow grease to get it out. The pain I felt putting it in is the pain I felt pulling it out. I winced. If I don’t do this it’ll stay there. I need to do this. Oooouuuuuch….out. Whew!! I was worried my ass would be sore the next day (Update: it’s not! Woohoo!). I felt so stretched out. I washed my toys in the sink. And cleaned myself up. Safe to say I slept incredibly well.

I woke up around 6am to use the bathroom and when I got back to my bedroom I saw the guy walking his dog outside my window. The slutty naughty girl in me wanted so badly to open my blinds and stand there topless (the way I sleep) and smile and wave hello. In the stillness of early morning no one else would know but us. Something like that could be forgiven as a fever dream. Sleepwalking even. But alas, I was too tired for all that.

I woke up in a haze wondering what I did last night. I had to go back and recount (in writing) all the things that happened. And THANK GOD I had enough self control not to act on all my impulses. Whew! Ovulation is wild. This one was particularly over the top. Even mister big was surprised just how horny I was. Maybe for the best this kind of behavior only happens one week a month. 😅




​*Disclaimer: this blog is a place for me to share my wildest thoughts. Like a diary. It doesn’t mean you’ll witness this side of me in real life. Chances of that are slim to none. Only those who’ve been intimate with me and earned my trust ever get to experience this side of me IRL.